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life has been beating me up and i've been struggling to get motivation to post on here (but i don't want to do low effort postings!!!)... this one is long overdue: my spotify charts for the year 2024!

what's all this?
i think the music i listen to reflects my interests at a certain point in time. this is me rationalising and reminiscing the year through the lens of my top 10 songs for each month, courtesy of receiptify. 2024 was an especially interesting year for me, as i was supposed to be normal if i had followed my pattern from previous years.

january to april: i'm normal
january was spent recuperating from my previous fixation: AAA. i was heartbroken over something somewhat petty (i still think i'm justified though) and was a bit determined to scrub my listening of aaa, as my 2023 wrapped was littered with aaa tracks. however, i didn't listen to new music outside of aaa during my aaa phase. no one knows this, most of january's tracks up there are my tracks i frequently listened to in the earlier months of 2023. i vividly remember listening to rejuvenation, heartbreak feels so good, work, love from the other side, and come back to you during the final steps of my final year project. this is not a bad thing. or a good thing. i'm of the opinion that i go through music quite slow. in a way, these tracks were calming, as they reminded me of simpler times, to cope from my shit job at the time (which i vividly remember crying from in this specific month, almost exactly a year ago).

genre-wise, 6 or 7 out of these 10 tracks are rock or some derivative of rock. nothing interesting or new to say here as i've always been partial to rock and music with prominent guitar. love ya by ss501 is k-pop, obviously, and one of my top favourites from the genre. only real ones know how legendary this song is. absolute classic with heavy classical influence, melodic vocals, and a signature brooding pretty boy vibe. the other non-rock song here is blood on fire by aaa. not sure how that got on here.

in february i really wanted to listen to 2000s r&b for some reason. i'm not sure what song triggered it, but i vividly remember giving spotify's r&b playlist a listen while at work. most of these songs were from that playlist. one song of note is just a dream by nelly. it definitely wasn't my first time ever listening to the song, but it was the first time i listened on purpose. from the first verse, it reminded me of something. then it clicked: bang yongguk's i remember. to my kpop-stained ears, these songs were similar, not to a t, but similar enough in vibes. one other notable thing about this month's top ten is the two renditions of insomnia, both in first and second place. both equal bangers to be honest. really wanted to listen to both.

march was the final month of relative listening normalcy for 2024. i kept listening to some choice songs from february, with some more upbeat additions. it was around this time that alors on danse blew up on my youtube shorts (lmao, i know, but i'm not on tiktok lol) and i fell for it, hook line and sinker. seems like i really loved listening to alors on danse huh? with stromae on my radar again i was curious about another singer who sang in french: mika. turns out he recently released an album... and i quite enjoyed some of the tracks! but i wouldn't be completely obsessed until april.

in march i was also playing like a dragon: infinite wealth, which explains the presence of king gnu here, as vocalist satoru iguchi played the character of tomizawa. one thing that doesn't quite show here is that i dived into awich's discography for a bit this month. senno is still her most insane song though.

my love for mika's new album reached full heights in april, the first month with consecutive same-artist rankings, which was only broken by the one and only bang yongguk with BAD. bad, to me, was a love at first listen. up until this point i never truly kept up with bap's solo activties (unhealed baby moment). i remember back in january definitely prepared me for this moment, and bap's eventual comeback activities from june onwards.

may (or lack thereof), and june
there's no data collection for may. i went into me new (current) job and i was shocked and traumatised to say the least. i ended up not driving as much, and not listening to music as much. i think trying to generate a receiptify for this month was useless as i listened to the same stuff when i was actually listening to music. just like my playlist, life was stagnant.

now, in june, life was slowly putting itself back together again, but i was bored - extremely bored. when i think of june 2024, i think of the moment i was contemplating watching penthouse again. this month's top ten is a mixed bag. there's some newcomers i've never listened to before: anna aya (who i heard on the radio) and heaven by the black moods (an AMAZING song i heard through instagram ads, strangely). there's 5SOS, a secret boyband love with me, myself & i, a song that resonates with me now in retrospect. then my enemy and why can't we be friends?, both old playlist listens. remember when i said i was bored? bad boy by cascada is anything but boring.

the elephant in the room: the bap tracks. on 12th june, they released the man on the moon documentary. dare i admit: the reality of it dawned on me very slow. i remembered thinking: i'm probably not that excited for this - i remember submitting to the reality that they weren't ever going to come back in a way that i would like when yj enlisted. but somehow my baby-isms swallowed me whole. goodbye is ironically one of my top bap songs.

july to october: peak babyism
bap, as bjym, released farewell in mid-july. i remember the day clearly: i pre-ordered albums then went on a jog. the song was released in the middle of the jog, and MA Ent didn't clarify what time they'd release the song, nor did they give a proper link in the release tweet. when i eventually listened to farewell in the car, it was all i could ever hoped for. when gone was released, i cried. i don't cry often for bap, believe it or not. a lot of the tracks from this month were introduced to me via stationhead streaming. bad also made a comeback in october.

as for the non-bap tracks, they were all songs i loved in the past.

november & december: halsey time
november marked a cooldown (but not an end) to bap's activities. gone had finally left the top 3. in late october, halsey released their the great impersonator album. my first listen wasn't as focused and i could only like lonely is the muse, which stands as one of my favourite releases of 2024. my second listen was much better, where i ended up liking 5 more tracks. this pattern would continue in early december with their previous album. girl is a gun is cunt personified.

in december, bap came back again with christmas with you. while snow was my favourite from the mood sampler, i found myself liking winter magic a lot.

i was a bit disappointed when my wrapped arrived, as a lot of my halsey listening wasn't included. of coure, i also hated that wrapped because of the ai rumours. ew. all in all, i have nothing else to say lmao
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last week (or in the middle of December, depending on when i upload this) i went to [redacted] for an almost week-long trip. i was excited to be out of the country, and to travel, and to explore the world: get some consistent fresh air, complete my rings, experience local coffee/food/culture, and maybe get some shopping in.

...it didn't turn out so great. there wasn't much to see in terms of local coffee/food/culture, and the ones that existed, most of the group wasn't interested in and i was too pussy to travel alone. thus, we were stuck in the apartment-mall complex that we stayed in on a lot of the days. it also didn't help that most establishments opened at 10AM - dissuading us from going out early.

here are some things i learned:
  1. to travel, get out of the mall
    • like... touch grass. go outside. get nature and sunlight and fresh air. it never dawned on me until now that malls don't have windows and are mostly artificially lit - spending upwards of 5 hours in a row in one is a bit hellish.
  2. utilise grab as much as you can!!
    • in a sense that... you can go anywhere you want. you are ABLE to. take in the sights and go where you thought was too inconvenient to walk to.
  3. create an itinerary!
    • i feel like my brain shoots blanks whenever i wake up in the morning during my vacations. i'm constantly bogged down by decision paralysis, where if i can't decide what to do, then i'll spend all my time thinking about what to do without actually doing anything. an actual concrete plan would help with that.
  4. visit museums and cultural sites
    • this might be self-explanatory.
  5. read books during the flight and while waiting in the airport
    • again, maybe self-explanatory. my main reason for this is because it lowers mobile data spending.
  6. online check-in!!
    • i didn't get to do an online check-in for my departure flight, and ended up with seats at the emergency exit door. minor inconvenience but i had to store my bag in the overhead compartment - not ideal for me as i need my eyes on my things at all times.
  7. wear comfy shoes and get comfier backups
    • i planned on wearing one pair and bringing an extra pair but i didn't get to because i didn't have space in my luggage. this was a bad decision because the shoes i wore turned out to be extremely uncomfortable after a few hours of walking. it genuinely ruined my motivation to do touristy things. i ended up buying some shoes.
  8. don't buy 13 panties
    • "who would by 13 panties?" me. i bought 13 panties. i didn't even realise the number until i counted at home. but yeah don't fixate on buying a certain thing
  9. take pictures of anything
    • this feels like a given but i realised i didn't take many pictures during my trip except for like... pictures of food, even though i brought my instax. take pics of other memories too - even the little ugly ones.
  10. bring glue for journalling
    • this one is just a personal reminder. i couldn't journal much because i couldn't stick my ephemera in.

this list is a bit haphazard because my sadness took over before i finished it. end of year sadness sucks. life sucks. this vacation kinda sucked

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